I did absolutely nothing productive today. I spent the majority of the day sitting infront of my new heater, and watching tv. If I wasn't doing that, I was updating my blogspot, or playing games on my laptop. Kinda sucky.

Because of all the spare time... I realized that I might have some serious forgiveness issues. Or trust issues actually... I'm sorta joining the two together. I'm finding myself "forgiving people" because I want to forgive them. Then later feeling deep down that I never really did. What am I supposed to do when the subconcious part of my mind is holding grudges? What does that say about the conscious side of me? The side that's making all the decisions? And what does that say about the kind of person I am? Does that make me a liar?

Don't judge me :( My mind is thinking two things at once and I can't get them on the same page. I really do have issues, yo.

How to love today:

Beause forgiveness is an act of love.

and to love, is to forgive :)

So does that mean my subconscious has no heart? :(

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