I've really be neglecting Blogspot lately. I guess I kinda miss it. I've been into Tumblr lately, not gonna lie. I guess I need more than one outlet now a days?

I've been chilling in my studio for so effing long, trying to squeeze out the creative juices out of my head. I'm totally drained. Mind you I haven't studied at ALL for tomorrow's exam. I shouldn't have taken that nap :(

Anyway things have been so weird lately, I'm kinda sad I can't call my life chill anymore. It's all just so weird. I can't wrap my mind around it. I've never felt so clueless about life before, haha! Not going to lie, I usually know what I'm doing (consciously) and it's either I do it or I don't. But right now it seems like, I'm running around blindfolded, because when I think I know what I'm doing, it just turns out I'm wrong. People are pulling me around in different directions, but it never feels right. Correct me if I'm wrong, but shouldn't doing the right thing feel right? at least in one way or another?

I don't know. I feel so targeted, so vulnerable right now. I feel like my strong willed personality was just wearing a mask all along. I feel like I was just trying to hide my weaknesses, and now they're tearing their way to the surface.


nts: The life I live in this world is simply a moment, a point, a nothing, in comparison of unfathomable eternity. Why waste the limited time I have here on all these silly problems?


k peace

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