who am i kidding? Plans:
It's the 2nd week of school and I'm already breaking my sleeping habit. I feel like there's so many things on my list... So many deadlines to meet, so many reminders, so many events, so many responsibilities... It's almost aching me. Not to mention all my other crap on top of that...

First of all, I'M HELLA SICK. Which is making school (esp pe) so much harder. Every morning I day dream about how I wish I was still in bed resting, rather than in the shower getting ready for school :( But I must fight it! Fight it like a warrior!!!!!

It's only been about a day and a half since my bestfriend left for his cruise to Hawaii (for 2 flipping weeks! so jealous!) and I pretty much miss him already, lol! I can't even get a hold of him, which makes it a little worse :( I also gave him my ipod, which helped me realize how much I actually use the thing. I find myself searching my room/bag for it sometimes, and then remembering that it's in the middle of the ocean, haha! I guess this is something to get used too... On the plus side, I pretty much have two lockers for the next 2 weeks! I also kinda forget how often I see him, because I find myself alone a lot of the time now, or not talking to anyone (esp at home) and it's kinda uncomfortable =/ not gonna lie. But I'm sure this will be easier as the days go on (ughhhh) I just wish time didn't move so damn slowly. BUT, I do hope he's having a lot of fun. Which is mainly why I wish I could talk to him, so I could hear about all the fun stuff he's doing :( ah well! 2 weeks isn't bad....... LIFE is so dope right now. I feel like things are slowly on it's way to fitting all together. I'm soo excited for 247 and possibly dance squad, LOL. I'm liking school so far... Praiseteam is gonna be so dope this year for sure... Planning to get a job soon, so i can buy books and esp take class, lol. Choreocookies workshop coming up soon, too... gotta dig up some money for that as well... aaaaand Camp 5oul and Joanna's debut in October, ahhh!!! but on the downside, I have to give up CS for my camp fast.... :( meaning i'll be cutting down on practicing... but it's all good. so long, cs... you've been so good to me.. i'll see you soon :( oh my goodness i missed the privacy. its times like these when i thank God endlessly that i dont have my phone at night anymore, because the silence was pure gold. for once in a what feels like a very long time, i let it sink in and take its place... where ive been so afraid to let it stay. i was so afraid to let it happen. i didnt know if i would survive. but i did. it wasnt easy... but it was tolerable. and it was over before i knew it.... now i know that this kind of thing is bearable, i see why so many ppl put up with it... cuz they can. so, whenever ur ready, Pain... ill be here, more prepared than last time. OH MY LORD. I can't believe we're going down this road again... You guys have been way too good to me. i honestly feel so unworthy of so much kindness. i'm not used to being treated like this. but i must be careful. thanks so much for everything. you know who you are (because you hear this from me all the time, haha!). i want to say that i deserve it, but i don't feel quite deserving :$