(despite my last blog...)

I'm not sure what's been happening lately. All I know is that the fire is fading... most days i find myself not trying. not giving it everything. i never remember why i'm dancing in the first place. i forgot what it's like to work my ass off... i need to remember why i'm dancing. not just to excel and be the best... but to love it. love it for what it is. what it makes me feel. the feeling that flows through my blood when i dance. the trance my mind goes into once the music starts playing. and it's not just about the choreography, it's not about who has the cooler moves... it's about how to move my body to the music... to "play the music with my body."

for the longest time i found myself constantly upset and bitter because i was never satisfied with myself. Never liked the way i danced. Never liked my choreography. I was always so focused on "how do i do this so it looks sick?" or "how can i look better than this girl beside me?" or "how can i make select" (lol). all this shit's been clouding the minds of so many dancers now a days. everyone's losing the love for dance and it's sad to see....

people should love it when it hurts. not bitch and complain. you should be proud that you worked so hard, that you're body is straining in exhaustion. it's not normal for people to want pain, haha. it just shows that it takes drive and passion to be able to work your body so hard... it takes love to ignore the soreness of your body and to wear it as a personal badge knowing that you busted your ass for it.

damn... as much as i'm lacking right now, i'm hella inspired to turn this shit around. a big ass thank you to all those dancers who are constantly inspiring me. whether i dance with you or not. Thank you for reminding me why i love dancing.

shout outs to

247, praiseteam sickstylz stonefox ktl xss rxf non dream illest vibe...

we're all reppin vancity's talent. be proud cuz you're all crazy ass dancers... and sorry if i forgot anyone. there's just so many of us haha. let's all remember why we're doing this, and spread the message by reflecting it off the way we dance.

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